Damn i haven't updated this shit in a long ass time. Shit anywaiz wuts up everyone? howz everyone doin? Anythin new? As 4 me not too much has changed i've just been caught up wit skoo and work. i have been gettin 5hrs of sleep a day. it kinda sux and da weather is killin me. i love da sun but not wen its freakin over 100 everyday and i wake up and its alread 80-90 in my room. bummer. but anywaiz i've been talkin to dis and i really like her. but da prob is dat she is leavin 4 college in 2 months. i don't know wut to do. she is so beautiful, has a great smile, out going, makes me laugh and i'm fallin for her. her freinds told me dat she doesn't want a relationship now but i don't know wut to do. she is so nce and i love talkin to her its just ...shit i don't know how to make this work. love is hard and sometimes i don;t know wut to do....... any advice?

Damn dis week has been crazy. dis past weekend waz so busy i had hardly anytime 4 ma self. so lets c on friday at da restaurant dat i work had  a huge party, so after skoo i had hustle a lot on friday ona empty stomach. i waz so tired then dat same nite i drove out to UC Davis to pik up ma one of ma best freinds. this is were it starts gettin crazy. when i got on to Highway 80 East towards a sac. there waz a huge accident wit 2 cars completely totalled blocking 2 lanes. It waz such a mess. dareason for da accident waz RAIN. and lots of it too!!!! it rainded so hard i waz hydroplaning at 50mph and foggy too so i could not see. slong da way to Davis there were 3 more accidents all with cars flipped or on there sides and a Saturn started to tailgate me. since i waz goin only 50 mph. he got so pissed he flashed his headlights and went round me then 10 sec. later he spun out in front of me. i was so scared i had to swerve to avoid him and slid into another lane and barely saved da car from da gaurd rail. and dat waz da worst of it. it waz da longert ride to Davis in ma life cuz normally it takes me 45 min but it took me 1.5hrs dis time. Anywaiz after i got to Davis i just passed out cuz i waz so tired at ma freinds house from drivin. da next day we went to da shooting range and fired all sorts of guns from shot guns to an M4 for 3 hrs. it waz hella fun but made me sore from shooting. afterwards i had to rush back to Pinole cuz i had to tkae ma bro to his violin recitle den drop ma freind off at his other house. den got to work late. then we had another party wit even more peepz den fri nite. after gettin home i passed out again. and da samethin happened on Sunday nite. it waz one crazy and busy weekend dat let me exhausted. durin da 3 dayz i worked from 4-11pm straight on empty stomachs cuz i had no time to eat.

then today another one of ma best freinds pissed me off. i usually give him rides home and have to wait 4 him at skoo for 3 hours cuz i get out of  ma classes earlier den him. so after  ma class i'm waiting and wen da time comes 4 him to call me he doesn't. in fact he doesnt call for another 45 min. so by den i'm gettin really irritable cuz i'm hungry and i call him bout 5 times but no answer. so den later i find out he didn't go!!! and he didn't even tell me. i got so pissed i just took off. now i'm still mad at him...... oh well i'll yell at him lata..anywaiz i fell a little better now. damn i wrote a lot. aite well i gotta get goin...lates 

damn now i got a tooth ache